:'(

Ive alaways said to myself tht ive regreted of not telling gareth my feeings b4 sophie kirk did, but when i wrote him a love letter telling him all the feelings i never had the courage o say to him, he recorded on luke's phone "i really dont want to go out with her!" even if i did tell him my feelings, he doesnt care...it means nuthing to him.....
i kepy saying to myself, stop luving gareth, hes not worth it, but i cant, no matter how hard i try, i juz cant! whenever i close my eyes, i see his image and hear his voice echoing"i really dont want to go out wiv her! i really dont want to go out wiv her" and so on and so on.......
the best thing i can do is fake smile all the time, to the customers tht come to my shop, to my parents, in front of  my frens and especially in front of gareth....
after the love letter thing, he started to avoid me, to make him happy again, and to make me forget him, ive decided to force myself to luv boys tht r nice to me and juz as them out, but i wan 2 do tht after my bday, cuz ive always been seeking 4 a special boy, the first one  to be wiv me for my bday, i thought gareth would b the suiable one, but he doesnt like me the same way i "like" him......